Shadow and Trickster

Blog No. 5 “Shadow and Trickster”

The readings for this segment affected me very strongly mentally, emotionally and pschologically. I now understand my dark side or Shadow self also I have uncovered the identity of Trickster.

As I read I would go into a semi/dream-like state and began receiving imageries and stories explaining my Shadow self and the Trickster.

I discovered that my past dreams of myself kneeling and looking into a well or dark pool of thick muddy water were trying to tell me my difficulty dealing with my life. I understand now why I was emotionally pulled into going back to school to study art and the reason for drawing my Shadow self over and over during my first Art Studio classes. This experience and all other experiences since I returned to school affirm that I have found my outlet to work out my life difficulties with art.

The Trickster character on-the-other-hand has been a psychological awakening for me. I was aware that Trickster existed in the Native American cultures and at the time had a sensation that I had had personal experiences with him/her. But, only after the recent readings did I finally get a handle on this character. In my imagery condition (or dream like state) I interacted with Trickster and it no longer is capable to distraut me. Now if I loose something or if I cannot find my way, I simiply identify Trickster with my third eye and ask help from the universe to resolve my situation (Trickster is not happy that I have this keen awarness of it). For example, the other day I was driving in Caldas de Reina (city close to Sao Martinho do Porto) and I was looking for a particular store. This time I did not get distraut about not finding my destination because I did my imagery and asked the universe to take me to the store. I was a very enlightening and enjoyable occurrence because I was in control and not Trickster.

In conclusion, I not only see Trickster in my life situations but unfortunatly have become aware of it in my friends situations and it is not fun because I can not do anything personally but only comfort my friends while they are distraut. Therefore, persumably Trickster still has a hold on me.